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Wednesday, 11 November 2009

Had Camp Comm meeting on Sunday as usual. This time, I skipped filming to go eat Frolick :D And abandoned this dear girl of mine. So sorry dear. Haha. But I heard they had a whole lot of fun :D Can't wait to see the clip(: (:

Been going out and eating a whole lot recently :D Haha. Went to Holland V on Monday after technical run in school. Ate so much bread :D Was so so full haha. Then it rained ): So we were kind of stuck there hee. Went to Foster's to eat their yummy scones again!(: Saw filming being done there. They shifted us ): Haha okay I'm not making sense now. Had a whole lot of entertainment watching May Na and Mel camwhore like crazy. Natural talent I tell you haha.

We had our last PW meeting yesterday!(: Plus we celebrated Esther's birthday too!(: That girl's so cute :D I love my PW group(: Or at least 3 of us haha :D After that Mel and I went to meet Bel to eat lunch. All the way at Simei >: ( That violent girl had to send her phone for repair and it took so so long ): Yeah. Went to eat lunch after that before crashing Mel's place to watch them play squash. Sadly, the hilarious videos are in Mel's cam ): ): Cause mine was dying. Haha. It was really entertaining :D

Yeah. So I'm one happy girl(: Having spent time with the people I love :D
OP's tomorrow though ): ): ): Scared to the max I tell you I dislike public speaking to the max ): ): Ahwells. I can't wait till it's over. Because it signifies the end of PW! :D It has been a great journey. Haha PW meeting yesterday was fun :D Asked obscure questions that we think may come out for Q&A and had such a fun time answering them haha. My PW group is fun :D

Been eating non-stop these few days though :/ Haha. But I went for training yesterday. Was quite awkward. But I'm glad I went back nonetheless(: Needed to exercise, felt so fat after eating so much good food. Plus I'm kind of broke oops ):

Going to watch A Christmas Carol tonight!(: Free tickets :D :D Haha. It would be a waste not to go watch even if OP's tomorrow haha.

Because I believe we can do this. Because we both believe it's the right thing to do. You know, I love you so so much. Lets grow old together! I love you<3

Sunday, 08 November 2009

Because I'm holding on.
To what I believe in.
&those I love

Monday, 02 November 2009

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey
You know this could be something

'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
You make it hard for breathing

'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everythings okay
I'm finally now believing

And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Well maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two, is better than one

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life
And I thought hey

Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
Maybe two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking

Oooh I can't live without you
'Cause baby two is better than one
There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
And I've figured out with all that's said and done
Two, is better than one

Two is better than one

Saturday, 31 October 2009

I thank God for my results. It's by His grace, not my own effort, seriously. Gosh. Thank you<3

It has been one busy week. Tiring like nobody's business. It seems like ages since I got a proper early night. Haha. Ahwells. A little while more and hopefully it'll all be over. OP's coming gosh haha I'm so not prepared ): Plus Laos CIP, ISLE and I don't know what other nonsense. Gosh what have I gotten myself into. What happened to slacking after promos ):

Played for Frisbee IHC on Wednesday. I had fun haha. Though we were super pathetic and didn't win any match hee. Had Touch IHC on Thursday. It was :/ Yeah. Stayed back in school yesterday to watch some OPs. It was really inspirational(: Haha. Then had a funny entertaining journey with two very funny people(: Yeah :D Met Mel early early this morning to do PW gosh first time we touched a weekend! Haha. Yeah. Had a great talk with her :D And yogurt! :D :D Yummy(: (: Then went to reece for camp gosh it was so so hot and there were so many mosquitoes ): Haha. Yep!(:

Most of the time, all you need is a little faith and trust. Faith to believe that things will turn out alright. Trusting that you'll be alright at the end of it all. Yet these are the things that are so difficult to possess. And when there's a lack of faith or trust, it feels as if everything's not alright. That the sun wouldn't shine as brightly again. But honestly, it's really difficult to have faith and trust all the time.

So, things always seem to go wrong, though they're alright. You're perpetually unhappy, though you could be alright. And then when you realise, you ask yourself, what's the point of all this. I guess we really live in a 'Me-society' these days, sigh. Some people do things just to prove their point. Ahwells.

I love, but I have to give you up. I want to, but I know it's wrong. I admit, it's getting a whole lot harder, it's hurting a whole lot more. But I'm not going to give up right now. I'm holding on to something more. Something more beautiful, more precious. I want you to know that this isn't easy, but I'm going to do it all the same. For both of us. I love you.

Sunday, 25 October 2009

Met up with Calida yesterday. It was so great seeing her again [ dear friend!(: ]. Even though it was simply for a movie, it felt great spending time with her again. Haha. All the way for your EE with the gummy bears and CLB! Yes CLB is the only Chinese subject at which I pwn you :D :D Haha. All the way dear can't wait to see you again!(:

Thursday was Caleb's last training with us. He's in Tekong now with no hair haha.

Life's been one crazy ride. Really insane I tell you. I realise its very difficult to deny yourself something that you really really want. But regardless of how hard it is, I'm going to persevere and stick to it. Because, I'm not letting that painful weekend be redundant. Yeah. And regardless of how things turn out, I won't regret.

I just thank God for really really awesome friends. Gosh what would I do without them.

Tomorrow's doomsday! Haha.

Because I believe, I believe there's more to life than all these. All the heartaches, headaches, heart breaks, rumours and whatnots. I believe in fun, laughter, joy, faith, happiness and most importantly, love. I believe that there's more to life than just studying and overcoming obstacles. There's gotta be something more isn't there. So amidst all the chaos that's happening right now, I'm holding on, looking forward to the times of fun laughter peace and joy that I once had. I believe, I believe that they will come again. Though things aren't at their best right now, it's alright. Because, I'm looking ahead.

If you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up
Cause I'll be waiting if you fall you know
I'll be there for you