This week was ultimate freedom!(: With parents and sister not around :D Hee.

Gosh I can't believe its finally the end of school :D :D No more lessons and whatnots :D Even though it isn't really much of a holiday, it beats having to go back to school every single day. Yes I'm a good girl who doesn't pon school(:

Went back to SN on Wed, again, for the official moving out ceremony. I guess SN will always always be home. Haha. Sung the school song once again, since like forever, and the IJ song Vivian was waiting for. Haha. It felt so good to be back. And yet again, so sad to know that the beautiful campus is gonna get torn down. :/ Sigh. Byebye ):

Erica crashed Math lecture that day haha. Quite funny Delaney told Esther Erica transferred and was our new classmate haha. I don't know how it turned out haha. But yeah :D Had a great time catching up with Tomoe and all. Miss that girl and her lameness tsktsk. Haha.

Yep! Went to watch The Informant! and Happy Flight this week. Haha. The former is pretty good, but very slow. Was dozing off after a tiring day of school. The latter is worth watching if you want a good laugh(:

Went for Blacks training on Wednesday night. Fitness totally killed all of us. Haha. Like I said, its retribution for eating all the junk food and nonsense the past few weeks. But it felt good to finally work out and not feel fat anymore haha. More trainings to come yay hopefully I'll be fit again(:

Yeah thats basically my week. Haha sadly there's school and all so the freedom I had couldn't really be exploited haha. Except for last night. Wanted to stay out really really late just for fun but Bel has training so couldn't stay out that late. But it felt good not having to care for curfews for once haha. Yay!

I'm glad my parents are back though. Running low on money oops. Had to borrow money to pay for H3 haha. Yeah ): Broke ttm.

Anyway! Exciting weekend ahead! So exciting :D Can't wait haha. Training tomorrow too!(: Hope it'll be alright(:

&I know I haven't been making things easy for you. I have never done that sigh. All I can say is, I'm not ready to let go I'm not giving up anytime soon. I'm hanging on, I promise you I'll hang on. It's been so long and I know we've failed like a million gazillion times. But like what you said, eventually, we'll learn. And I think, we'll be able to, if we do it together. I love you dear. I know it hasn't been easy, I'm sorry. I'm still looking forward to many more years ahead of us. Loves<3

&So once again, the counter resets;

Because you convinced me,
You felt that its was worthwhile.
Despite everything that has happened.
And everything that was going to come.

Because you made me believe,
You wanted this.
That it would kill you to give it up.
That giving up would bring regrets.

I thought I could bear to see you walk away.
But I couldn't.

So I'm hanging on.
I'm afraid,
More than ever before.
But I'm holding tight.

Because, I still believe.
Thank you.
I love you<3

PW's OVER! Like officially! Even I&R oh gosh I'm so happy :D

OP on Thursday was better than I expected, for me. Gosh. I was so so scared haha my heart was beating so so fast ): And then there was this part when I was speaking, when I totally blanked out and forgot my script for a moment. With no cue cards somemore. Haha. Thank God I remembered my next line after an awkward pause for a few seconds. Seriously thank God if not I would have died already. Plus Q&A question was alright! :D :D Haha super happy(:

Went to Jon Wah's house after OP to play RockBand and slack around. Then off to ChompChomp for dinner with my favourite people plus 3 guys haha. They ordered so much food oh gosh. The food was yummy though(: Ate so much was so full. Haha. They had Sugarcane Challenge. Drank (a little of) this whole enormous glass of lime juice and ate Ice Kachang :D Yes I'm a kid(: Left early after that because I was really tired and was super poor company. Went home and watched TV before doing my I&R and going to sleep :D

Went back to school for extra Chem lessons yesterday. Can you believe it ): Haha. It was alright I guess. Managed to do tutorial instead of listening to her haha. Two hours, three questions. Super slow I tell you. After that, stayed back to help May Na collate I&R before skipping seeing EK and went home to sleeeeeeeeeeeep(:

Went to IKEA after that with Bel(: Yummy food I tell you. At the rate I'm eating, I'm going to grow fat haha. Ate yummy meatballs and potato salad. Was so so so full. Then we went to walk IKEA before buying ice cream :D IKEA had really nice set-ups. Haha. Okay a few of them. It was so so cold was freeeeeeeezing. We walked the whole of IKEA before deciding to go to the giant Giant to walk. Haha.

Then we went to catch 2012!(: It was quite a good show. Haha the tickets were sold out. After the movie, went to eat traditional bread before going home. Haha super tired. Crashed on the bus ride back home. Unlike someone, I actually woke up early to go to school haha. Still love you though you always pon school! Hee(:

Recently, I've learnt that being fair to the people you love means letting them in. Not pushing them away. It means letting them know how you truly feel, not just putting on a front. I've also learnt that you don't have to be who people want you to be around those who truly love and care for you. Because they just want you to be yourself. I guess I've always known all these. But I just haven't truly realised what it meant.

I haven't been fair, I acknowledge that. But I'm trying. I'm trying really hard and it's not easy I tell you. After years of doing it, it's difficult to change suddenly. I'm so sorry for putting you through it all. I'll continue trying, I promise. Give me a little time. I love you<3

I thank God for my results. It's by His grace, not my own effort, seriously. Gosh. Thank you<3

It has been one busy week. Tiring like nobody's business. It seems like ages since I got a proper early night. Haha. Ahwells. A little while more and hopefully it'll all be over. OP's coming gosh haha I'm so not prepared ): Plus Laos CIP, ISLE and I don't know what other nonsense. Gosh what have I gotten myself into. What happened to slacking after promos ):

Played for Frisbee IHC on Wednesday. I had fun haha. Though we were super pathetic and didn't win any match hee. Had Touch IHC on Thursday. It was :/ Yeah. Stayed back in school yesterday to watch some OPs. It was really inspirational(: Haha. Then had a funny entertaining journey with two very funny people(: Yeah :D Met Mel early early this morning to do PW gosh first time we touched a weekend! Haha. Yeah. Had a great talk with her :D And yogurt! :D :D Yummy(: (: Then went to reece for camp gosh it was so so hot and there were so many mosquitoes ): Haha. Yep!(:

Most of the time, all you need is a little faith and trust. Faith to believe that things will turn out alright. Trusting that you'll be alright at the end of it all. Yet these are the things that are so difficult to possess. And when there's a lack of faith or trust, it feels as if everything's not alright. That the sun wouldn't shine as brightly again. But honestly, it's really difficult to have faith and trust all the time.

So, things always seem to go wrong, though they're alright. You're perpetually unhappy, though you could be alright. And then when you realise, you ask yourself, what's the point of all this. I guess we really live in a 'Me-society' these days, sigh. Some people do things just to prove their point. Ahwells.

I love, but I have to give you up. I want to, but I know it's wrong. I admit, it's getting a whole lot harder, it's hurting a whole lot more. But I'm not going to give up right now. I'm holding on to something more. Something more beautiful, more precious. I want you to know that this isn't easy, but I'm going to do it all the same. For both of us. I love you.