Friday, 27 November 2009



  • This week was ultimate freedom!(: With parents and sister not around :D Hee.

    Gosh I can't believe its finally the end of school :D :D No more lessons and whatnots :D Even though it isn't really much of a holiday, it beats having to go back to school every single day. Yes I'm a good girl who doesn't pon school(:

    Went back to SN on Wed, again, for the official moving out ceremony. I guess SN will always always be home. Haha. Sung the school song once again, since like forever, and the IJ song Vivian was waiting for. Haha. It felt so good to be back. And yet again, so sad to know that the beautiful campus is gonna get torn down. :/ Sigh. Byebye ):

    Erica crashed Math lecture that day haha. Quite funny Delaney told Esther Erica transferred and was our new classmate haha. I don't know how it turned out haha. But yeah :D Had a great time catching up with Tomoe and all. Miss that girl and her lameness tsktsk. Haha.

    Yep! Went to watch The Informant! and Happy Flight this week. Haha. The former is pretty good, but very slow. Was dozing off after a tiring day of school. The latter is worth watching if you want a good laugh(:

    Went for Blacks training on Wednesday night. Fitness totally killed all of us. Haha. Like I said, its retribution for eating all the junk food and nonsense the past few weeks. But it felt good to finally work out and not feel fat anymore haha. More trainings to come yay hopefully I'll be fit again(:

    Yeah thats basically my week. Haha sadly there's school and all so the freedom I had couldn't really be exploited haha. Except for last night. Wanted to stay out really really late just for fun but Bel has training so couldn't stay out that late. But it felt good not having to care for curfews for once haha. Yay!

    I'm glad my parents are back though. Running low on money oops. Had to borrow money to pay for H3 haha. Yeah ): Broke ttm.

    Anyway! Exciting weekend ahead! So exciting :D Can't wait haha. Training tomorrow too!(: Hope it'll be alright(:

    &I know I haven't been making things easy for you. I have never done that sigh. All I can say is, I'm not ready to let go I'm not giving up anytime soon. I'm hanging on, I promise you I'll hang on. It's been so long and I know we've failed like a million gazillion times. But like what you said, eventually, we'll learn. And I think, we'll be able to, if we do it together. I love you dear. I know it hasn't been easy, I'm sorry. I'm still looking forward to many more years ahead of us. Loves<3

    &So once again, the counter resets;

Saturday, 21 November 2009



  • Restructured timetable is full of breaks and on rare occasions, school ends early. I like :D Haha. Had H3 on Monday. GOSH it was so CHEEM. Haha. Shamira and I were going 'Huh?!' throughout the whole lecture. And we have tutorials to do already HAHA. Tell me how to do when I don't understand anything at all. Haha. I haven't tried doing it yet. Oops.

    Tuesday was spent out with Mel and Bel going to eat again! Went to Clarke Quay to eat May Na's ramen and egg plus BREAD :D Haha. Then went to Chinatown to try their scones and talk. Haha I tell you, everytime I go out with them hungry, I go home full full full. But I love spending time with them(: Tuesday was also ultimate epic day. Training got cancelled 8 minutes before it started, when we were all on our way there. Haha. Did a little fitness anyway. Woke up aching the next day. So unfit ):



    Wednesday was supposed to be breakfast with Chloe day! But the class crashed 'cause we all had 3hours to kill. Went to Long Johns to eat before walking around and then settling at Coffee Bean to eat cheesecake(: (: After school, went to meet Calida and went back to StNicks. Haha. Met my ex-form teacher who said she was just thinking about me because she wanted me to tutor her daughter! Haha super funny :D Went to walk AMK hub after that before going home.

    Thursday was run in the gym day! Because it was raining raining and raining still. Haha first time there. Lucky nothing much happened. Hee. After that, went to meet the team for dinner at Cafe Cartel :D Haha they are hilarious I tell you. Missed spending time with them. Free bread!(: (: (: Went home because I couldn't stay over. Haha I heard their epic encounter with the security guard haha super funny. Had to rush Alkenes tutorial though ): ):

    Friday was Chem day! Chem lecture plus two hours of Chem tutorial. On the bright side, no more chem tutorial plus we ended school early!(:

    So yeah that was my week. Mel went overseas and abandoned us. She's coming back tomorrow! Miss her so ):

    You taught me what love's about.
    &Now, I believe<3

Thursday, 19 November 2009

  • Because you convinced me,
    You felt that its was worthwhile.
    Despite everything that has happened.
    And everything that was going to come.

    Because you made me believe,
    You wanted this.
    That it would kill you to give it up.
    That giving up would bring regrets.

    I thought I could bear to see you walk away.
    But I couldn't.

    So I'm hanging on.
    I'm afraid,
    More than ever before.
    But I'm holding tight.

    Because, I still believe.
    Thank you.
    I love you<3

Monday, 16 November 2009

Saturday, 14 November 2009



  • PW's OVER! Like officially! Even I&R oh gosh I'm so happy :D

    OP on Thursday was better than I expected, for me. Gosh. I was so so scared haha my heart was beating so so fast ): And then there was this part when I was speaking, when I totally blanked out and forgot my script for a moment. With no cue cards somemore. Haha. Thank God I remembered my next line after an awkward pause for a few seconds. Seriously thank God if not I would have died already. Plus Q&A question was alright! :D :D Haha super happy(:

    Went to Jon Wah's house after OP to play RockBand and slack around. Then off to ChompChomp for dinner with my favourite people plus 3 guys haha. They ordered so much food oh gosh. The food was yummy though(: Ate so much was so full. Haha. They had Sugarcane Challenge. Drank (a little of) this whole enormous glass of lime juice and ate Ice Kachang :D Yes I'm a kid(: Left early after that because I was really tired and was super poor company. Went home and watched TV before doing my I&R and going to sleep :D

    Went back to school for extra Chem lessons yesterday. Can you believe it ): Haha. It was alright I guess. Managed to do tutorial instead of listening to her haha. Two hours, three questions. Super slow I tell you. After that, stayed back to help May Na collate I&R before skipping seeing EK and went home to sleeeeeeeeeeeep(:

    Went to IKEA after that with Bel(: Yummy food I tell you. At the rate I'm eating, I'm going to grow fat haha. Ate yummy meatballs and potato salad. Was so so so full. Then we went to walk IKEA before buying ice cream :D IKEA had really nice set-ups. Haha. Okay a few of them. It was so so cold was freeeeeeeezing. We walked the whole of IKEA before deciding to go to the giant Giant to walk. Haha.

    Then we went to catch 2012!(: It was quite a good show. Haha the tickets were sold out. After the movie, went to eat traditional bread before going home. Haha super tired. Crashed on the bus ride back home. Unlike someone, I actually woke up early to go to school haha. Still love you though you always pon school! Hee(:

    Recently, I've learnt that being fair to the people you love means letting them in. Not pushing them away. It means letting them know how you truly feel, not just putting on a front. I've also learnt that you don't have to be who people want you to be around those who truly love and care for you. Because they just want you to be yourself. I guess I've always known all these. But I just haven't truly realised what it meant.

    I haven't been fair, I acknowledge that. But I'm trying. I'm trying really hard and it's not easy I tell you. After years of doing it, it's difficult to change suddenly. I'm so sorry for putting you through it all. I'll continue trying, I promise. Give me a little time. I love you<3

Wednesday, 11 November 2009


  • Had Camp Comm meeting on Sunday as usual. This time, I skipped filming to go eat Frolick :D And abandoned this dear girl of mine. So sorry dear. Haha. But I heard they had a whole lot of fun :D Can't wait to see the clip(: (:



    Been going out and eating a whole lot recently :D Haha. Went to Holland V on Monday after technical run in school. Ate so much bread :D Was so so full haha. Then it rained ): So we were kind of stuck there hee. Went to Foster's to eat their yummy scones again!(: Saw filming being done there. They shifted us ): Haha okay I'm not making sense now. Had a whole lot of entertainment watching May Na and Mel camwhore like crazy. Natural talent I tell you haha.


    We had our last PW meeting yesterday!(: Plus we celebrated Esther's birthday too!(: That girl's so cute :D I love my PW group(: Or at least 3 of us haha :D After that Mel and I went to meet Bel to eat lunch. All the way at Simei >: ( That violent girl had to send her phone for repair and it took so so long ): Yeah. Went to eat lunch after that before crashing Mel's place to watch them play squash. Sadly, the hilarious videos are in Mel's cam ): ): Cause mine was dying. Haha. It was really entertaining :D

    Yeah. So I'm one happy girl(: Having spent time with the people I love :D
    OP's tomorrow though ): ): ): Scared to the max I tell you I dislike public speaking to the max ): ): Ahwells. I can't wait till it's over. Because it signifies the end of PW! :D It has been a great journey. Haha PW meeting yesterday was fun :D Asked obscure questions that we think may come out for Q&A and had such a fun time answering them haha. My PW group is fun :D 

    Been eating non-stop these few days though :/ Haha. But I went for training yesterday. Was quite awkward. But I'm glad I went back nonetheless(: Needed to exercise, felt so fat after eating so much good food. Plus I'm kind of broke oops ):

    Going to watch A Christmas Carol tonight!(: Free tickets :D :D Haha. It would be a waste not to go watch even if OP's tomorrow haha.

    Because I believe we can do this. Because we both believe it's the right thing to do. You know, I love you so so much. Lets grow old together! I love you<3

Sunday, 08 November 2009

Monday, 02 November 2009



  • I remember what you wore on the first day
    You came into my life
    And I thought hey
    You know this could be something

    'Cause everything you do and words you say
    You know that it all takes my breath away
    And now I'm left with nothing

    'Cause maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
    Well maybe two is better than one
    There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
    And you've already got me coming undone
    And I'm thinking two, is better than one

    I remember every look upon your face,
    The way you roll your eyes, the way you taste
    You make it hard for breathing

    'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
    I think of you and everythings okay
    I'm finally now believing

    And maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
    Well maybe two is better than one
    There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
    And you've already got me coming undone
    And I'm thinking two, is better than one

    I remember what you wore on the first day
    You came into my life
    And I thought hey

    Maybe it's true, that I can't live without you
    Maybe two is better than one
    There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
    And you've already got me coming undone
    And I'm thinking

    Oooh I can't live without you
    'Cause baby two is better than one
    There's so much time, to figure out the rest of my life
    And I've figured out with all that's said and done
    Two, is better than one

    Two is better than one

Saturday, 31 October 2009



  • I thank God for my results. It's by His grace, not my own effort, seriously. Gosh. Thank you<3

    It has been one busy week. Tiring like nobody's business. It seems like ages since I got a proper early night. Haha. Ahwells. A little while more and hopefully it'll all be over. OP's coming gosh haha I'm so not prepared ): Plus Laos CIP, ISLE and I don't know what other nonsense. Gosh what have I gotten myself into. What happened to slacking after promos ):

    Played for Frisbee IHC on Wednesday. I had fun haha. Though we were super pathetic and didn't win any match hee. Had Touch IHC on Thursday. It was :/ Yeah. Stayed back in school yesterday to watch some OPs. It was really inspirational(: Haha. Then had a funny entertaining journey with two very funny people(: Yeah :D Met Mel early early this morning to do PW gosh first time we touched a weekend! Haha. Yeah. Had a great talk with her :D And yogurt! :D :D Yummy(: (: Then went to reece for camp gosh it was so so hot and there were so many mosquitoes ): Haha. Yep!(:

    Most of the time, all you need is a little faith and trust. Faith to believe that things will turn out alright. Trusting that you'll be alright at the end of it all. Yet these are the things that are so difficult to possess. And when there's a lack of faith or trust, it feels as if everything's not alright. That the sun wouldn't shine as brightly again. But honestly, it's really difficult to have faith and trust all the time.

    So, things always seem to go wrong, though they're alright. You're perpetually unhappy, though you could be alright. And then when you realise, you ask yourself, what's the point of all this. I guess we really live in a 'Me-society' these days, sigh. Some people do things just to prove their point. Ahwells.

    I love, but I have to give you up. I want to, but I know it's wrong. I admit, it's getting a whole lot harder, it's hurting a whole lot more. But I'm not going to give up right now. I'm holding on to something more. Something more beautiful, more precious. I want you to know that this isn't easy, but I'm going to do it all the same. For both of us. I love you.
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  • paracetemolness
    haha..im not saying your life is depressing..haha it might be the way you express it in your blog...haha. Ofcourse its always good to be happy but without sadness, happiness would not be worth it;)so yeah.haha.im just saying.haha
  • paracetemolness
    when i read your blog, honestly it is very depressing:O you sound like your sad but it seems happy;)