Saturday, 06 February 2010
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Recently, it seems as if I've been waiting for too many things. Waiting for the lecture/tutorial to end, waiting for breaks, waiting for training, waiting for the bus and so on and so on. I remember reading somewhere that we spend one third of our lives waiting for something. I guess I'm really feeling it right now.
It's been one whole long series of bad trainings lately. Bad trainings = people getting upset/pissed off. Today was the ultimate I swear. :/ Injured my thumb pretty badly on Wednesday. I felt like some idiot having to sit out and watch them train when I wanted to play so much :/ But it's better now!(: It's black and blue though. But at least it isn't so pain anymore(: But yeah I really hope trainings get better. Or at least we'll be okay. 'Cause now, the chance of us being okay seems really low. :/ Thank God I'm still feeling alright despite everything, really. Plus thank my awesome friends who listen to me when I'm feeling down after training, it really makes me feel better. We can do this! :D
Haha yep. I feel as if my life is settling into some kind of routine. Not one that I particularly like, but well, I don't really hate it either. At least I get to spend my Tuesday afternoons with my team mates (or at least some of them :D ) studying, or trying to study. Haha. I hope we end up being productive though! Haha. Yeah. And well, Mondays and Thursday are spent trying to rack my brains to decipher Chem. It's hard I swear. It's a pretty tiring routine though. Been crashing a whole lot recently. But I guess I'm really running on His strength(: Hee.
But other than all that, life's been pretty fine. I really really thank God for my classmates and team mates. Gosh they make school so so so so so much more endurable and even fun at least. Haha. Without them, school will be some boring shit. Hee hee my classmates are cool, beat that.
Oh yes my brother went into army yesterday!!! He has no hair now haha. The house is so so quiet now and there's no one to help me when my Math Chem Econs and GP. I'm gonna fail so so badly ): Ahwells. Till he comes back then, can laugh at him for having no hair teehee.
I miss the times we used to spend together, be it studying or camwhoring or simply talking crap. I miss how we used to be able to talk freely and how we were always there for each other. I missed how we always laugh and disagree when people say we look like sisters/twins. I miss how we used to be able to relate to each other, to share things freely. These days, we only talk about school, how we are coping and all. There doesn't seem to be much else we can talk about. Like they always say, people change with time. But I really miss you my dear friend/sister. You seem so different now that it scares me a whole lot. But as long as you're happy, I guess I'll bear with it. I just thought you let you know that, I miss you<3
Like what you said, it sucks having to go from being able to spend so much time hanging out together to just seeing each other properly for a really short period of time each day. But like I said, at least we're both understanding about each other's circumstances. And I want to say that, even though it seems like forever before things will get 'better', in a way, I'm still willing to wait. It's just 2 months. I guess, in a way, these 2 months will really test how strong we are because it's gonna get super trying. And I really hope that we'll still be the way we are right now 2 months later. It's gonna be tiring, it's gonna suck a whole lot, it's gonna get super duper stressful, but know that, I'm always here(: All the way dear<3
Saturday, 30 January 2010
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School's been really tiring, thats all I have to say. Haha. Recently, days and weeks have been seeming longer and longer. It feels like the start of the week was ages ago. But then again, time seems to be passing so so fast! :/
Late night trainings are draining to the max I tell you. After a whole long day of school and all, somehow training at night doesn't seem as appealing as before. Regardless of the cool weather and all, not to mention reaching home super late and just crashing. Haha. All I can say is, I'm going to become fitter!(:
I really have to thank God for the people around me. I'm truly blessed, thats all I can say. Things have been crazy these few days. Or rather, I got back my old habit of wanting to run away from things once again. After all, running away seems so much simpler than facing up to complications and all. But I'm proud to say that I haven't run away!(: And it's really thanks to the aweseome friends that I have that help me keep my sanity. Especially my classmates, who never ever fail to make me smile, if not laugh(: I really appreciate you guys :D
These few weeks of school haven't been easy at all ): I guess its just a matter of getting used to and well, surviving the curriculum. Especially with an extra 4 hours of H3 every week. But I believe that with God's strength, I'll pull through(: He's been absolutely amazing so far and I can't wait to see what He has in store(: Hee.
OH OH. The J1s are officially here! Haha. It was so fun people watching in the canteen with classmates that day. Hee. Tried to spot juniors but failed terribly because there were too many people. The class seems so weird without the 4 ogls. :/ Haha. Still, orientation looks fun and happeninga and I hope everything's going well(: The only drawback is, the school's super duper crowded now :/ Ahwells. Hee.
As things get crazier, as you have lesser and lesser time to yourself, I want you to know that I'll still be waiting here. I'll grab any chance there is, even if its just for a while. 3 more months dear, 3 more months(: Thank you though, for being ever-so understanding, putting up with my nonsense and all. If I were you, I would have slapped me a long long time ago. Haha. Hang in there alright. I know academics suck now but well, you'll pull through! I'm here if you need anything(: Please do take care of yourself alright. All the way dear, I'm right behind you<3
Wednesday, 20 January 2010
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Lately, too many things have become too complicated for me to bear. It's such a headache trying to figure out what to do and all that sometimes I feel like just running away but I can't. Haha I'm a simple person, I like a simple life. But lately, things have been anything but simple.But regardless, I'm survivng school and everything else! Just barely, but with a whole lot of God's grace and blessings, I'm alright still :D
School's been pretty okay so far. Even with all the homework starting to pour in. Thank you girls, for keeping me sane in school(: Haha doing stupid things with me in class. I missed that during the holidays. The only chore now is getting up so early in the morning haha. But classmates have been the bomb(: Missed them so much during the holiadys it feels great to catch up with them(:
Finally finally caught up with Mel! Haha.Went to eat a HUGE tub of yoghurt with her and sat there and froze after that because the win was so so close. Had so much fun and retardedness by just walking to the bus stop with her, laughing non-stop. I miss that(: Haha I had a whole lot of fun with that girl! That was before all the craziness started :/ Ahwells.
I think things are just gonna get more insane from now on before they finally get better. Well I do hope that they do get better in the end. Haha I don't know why everything's so complicated now I don't know what to do I don't want to do anything. Haha. I really hope everything works out, everyone's happy, or at least okay. Because its the people I care about that matter the most to me.
But thank you, for always being there. I know I haven't been very nice to be with lately, especially around you. But I guess you're the one person I dare to be like that with. I'm sorry but thank you so much. Especially what happened the last time we watched a movie. All I have to say is, thank you. I don't know what else to say. I promise I'll try my best to be in better moods, especially around you. And yes we'll pull through this crazy period together. I'll wait, regardless of what I may do or say in front of you. I'm not really good at things like that but yeah. Haha. So yes, till 4 months later(: Thank you<3
Friday, 01 January 2010
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HAPPY NEW YEAR :D
2009's over haha.
It was a good year. Really. God has been awesome to me.
2009 meant a brand new year in JC. Haha I remember results day. It seems so far away now. But yeah all I have to say is that I'm greatly blessed by God this year. From results to choice of school to OG to class to clique to touch and even my results. He blessed me in every single area. And I'm super grateful to Him(:
I remember, I never ever wanted to make it to RJ. It was always another school for me. Haha. So when I got my posting results, I wasn't very elated to make it into RJ. But then again, I guess it was His will for me to go there. I had a whole lot of fun in 2009. I made many friends in RJ - in both my OG and class. And I want to say that I'm truly blessed by all of them(: Especially 4HB+1CD(:
Gosh you guys made my life in RJ a whole lot more fun, more meaningful. I still cannot get over the fact that I've known you all for less than a year, because it feels like forever to me(: Thank you all for making life in school so so fun.Without you all, I know life in RJ would be very different. You guys have always been there for me, thank you(: I love you all and I know I'll survive this year with you guys around(: I can't wait to see you all again :D I want to state clearly: despite everything, I have no regrets going to RJ(:
Touch has been generally great(: Haha generally because there have been ups and downs. But still, I love the sport. So I don't think I'm gonna give up anytime soon. And yes I made really good friends in Touch(: I remember the first few matches, the joy of playing with the team. And it didn't matter whether we won or lost (by the way, we lost like every single match hee) because it was the experience that counts. I know it isn't this way now and things have changed and people have left since the beginning, but I believe that this year, or rather half a year, left in Touch will be as memorable. So lets work hard together :D
I'm quite glad that I managed to keep in touch and meet up with St Nicks friends(: Because they mean a whole lot to me. I miss them to bits and pieces. I remember, during orientation week, Cass Lai and I were missing our class a whole lot. Haha. But yeah I'm glad that I managed to meet up with some of them. Though we don't always meet up, I know that they're gonna be friends for a long long time :D Haha. I haven't seen some of them in ages though ): I just want to say that these girls have been my support during the first few weeks in RJ, where everything felt so unfamiliar and scary. They listened to me ranting and talked to me on the phone at night when I freaked out and broke down. Thank you guys(: I know we don't always see each other, but I still want you to know that you're treasured(:
Life in church has been pretty alright in 2009. There were many changes though. Some of which I know I don't like at all. But then again, that's life. Serving in teens has been great. Tiring at times but great all the same. The highlights were of course church camp and teens camp. I grew close to some people but drifted away from others. Got to know some people better and didn't spend as much time with others. Yeah. I guess, though I haven't really grown as much as compared to previous year, I still grew with God. And that's a blessing by itself. It's tough though. But I know I'll press on :D Haha yeah. There were many struggles, regardless. And like what I shared with Pastor, I'm glad I pulled through. Yeah some struggles may never be over. But still, knowing that He is there and all really makes things a whole lot easier. And well, it's time for His will to be done :D
I felt really honoured when you said that the last few months of 2009 were great. And I want you to know that I'm really glad that I got to know you this year. You have been a great friend to me, you know what I mean. I remember seeing you on the very first day of school (haha yes it must be fate! :D ). Haha yeah and when we ended up in the same class haha. Despite everything that has happened, I know I'm very happy that we're still friends. Because I know things could have turned out the opposite way, and that would have been very sad. You are amazing, have I told you that? You who manage to tolerate everything I have given you. Gosh. Thank you so much for always always being there and everything. I can never thank you enough for that. So yes we have a whole year (and many many other years!) ahead of us :D And I know this year is going to be insane for you, especially the first 4 months. I have faith, faith that we'll survive the year(: It's a brand new year :D Exciting ain't it! Haha. It's a brand new year for us<3
Haha yeah I guess that pretty much summarises my year. I'm glad to have survived and being happy still. Never thought it would happen when I got my posting results. It's God's grace, really(: And I'm blessed. I know its not gonna be an easy year ahead, with As and everything else coming into place. But I also know that I will pull through, with His help(: Haha I remember freaking out after watchnight about Os. And I'm proud to say that I didn't do that this year(: Haha. Because I know, He will bring me through :D
Tuesday, 29 December 2009
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Christmas in church was pretty fun(: Haha. It was a short service. Being kiasu Singaporeans, we reserved a whole row of seats for ourselves. Sadly, there still weren't enough seats. Haha. Went around giving out cards and collecting my presents after service. Took many many photos :D After that, went to meet Bel to catch Sherlock Holmes. Ate so much yummy food(: The cinema was so so crowded! :/ Haha. I spilled her coke ): But the movie was good, really :D
Went to meet Mary, Meiqin, Ruijuan and Calida on Saturday at Clarke Quay for lunch after breakfast in church. Gosh I think I'm gonna turn fat with all the food that I'm eating. ): Ahwells, the price to pay for good food. Haha. It was fun catching up with them but I felt that it got a little awkward towards the end :/ So Calida and I planned to leave, we said byebye and everything then it started raining. So we hung around and when we wanted to go back, we met Meiqin and Ruijuan. We felt so bad for pangsei-ing them but it was raining we couldn't leave! Anyway, I left first to head back to church for M4. Caught stuck at the MRT station thanks to the rain though. Jessica came to rescue me haha. But yeah M4 was good. Took many photos for them :D Hee. Went to play lan with the guys after that before finally heading home(:
Went to catch Alvin and the Chipmunks 2 after service on Sunday. It was a good show! Like seriously(: Theodore is simply so cute :D Hee. Went to get some stuff and my contacts before going home to rest haha.
Went to see Christmas lights yesterday(: Walked 313 too. The place is huge I tell you. Bought a jacket (I like :D ) haha was happy happy(: Ate dinner at Orchard Central before walking to Dhoby to go home(: I had a great time, really :D Haha before that I stayed home and tried to do work. Haha the amount of work I did was pathetic. But ahwells hee.
Yep yep. Camp was great, for me at least. And I know they enjoyed it(: Honestly, there were many frustrations and many times when I felt that I didn't want to do it anymore. Thank you Bel for listening through my messages<3 But yes I'm so glad that it went well, that 4 of us managed to give the teens an awesome camp before we truly stepped down. I'm really thankful to God that everything went well, seriously. And some insights and some things I took away from the camp will stay with me for quite awhile(: And like what Pastor said, God is pleased :D Haha and I'm happy(: It was a tiring 4 days though, honestly. With much crankiness and all. :/ Thank you, you 3 who had to work with me and bear with my moods. I thank God for all of you(: And I'm glad we managed to pull through after 6 months of work. Thank you guys(:
Haha so yep. Gonna finally put a closure to the camp tonight during camp debrief. It was a good experience(: Sadly, its time to get my brain up and running again ): School's starting in 2 weeks and I have to get my work done haha. Currently, I have my math book in front of me and all I feel like doing is sleeping oops. Haha.
I had fun with you(: I'm sorry I was mad at you. And I know I refused to tell you why because it was really my fault. But we'll share things, next time :D Hee. Haha I meant everything I told you. And I want to thank you for the awesome night(: Like what I said, it felt like forever since we've last done that. I guess we both have been busy huh? Haha but yeah you're gonna be pretty busy still. Please take care and rest enough alright! Can't wait to see you! I'm so glad you're not mad at me anymore, really. I'll keep my promise :D Love love<3
Sunday, 20 December 2009
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So, maybe life hasn't been perfect. But then again, since when is it ever perfect?
Anyway, 10 things to note hee.
1. I had a very very happy birthday(: Thank you to all who made it so special :D
2. I wasted a week++ getting well after falling sick the very next day haha.
3. I had fun at home when I was surprised by someone<3
4. I haven't done any work ):
5. I need more Honey Lemon drinks *hint hint*
6. I need someone to clear my room for me.
7. Christmas is coming YAY :D
8. I am totally broke ):
9. I want more holidays ):
10. I love you<3
Haha. Yeah that's about it hee.
Time and time again, you don't push me away. Have I told you that you're amazing? Please take care of yourself these 4 days alright. That day, was horrendous. Lets pray that I be sensible and no more recurrences of that happen alright. While the other day, when I saw you from upstairs, was simply, (: (: (: Hee. Haha. You get what I mean. Anyway! Take care! Love you<3
Off to camp from Monday to Thursday!(:
Monday, 14 December 2009
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You really made my day today.
I love you<3
Saturday, 05 December 2009
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Joelle went out to play this week!(:
Monday was spent at home stoning/slacking/sleeping/doing work [ haha yes doing work on the first day of holidays ): ]. Haha. More on slacking though :D
Tuesday was spent at Mel's place! :D Haha. We did work for '3 seconds', according to her dad :D And then we went to make crepe!(: With all our failed attempts and funny fillings it was so so fun! Haha. Yeah. Then we watched He's Not That Into You before going for dinner at Sushi Tei with her family. Haha her family is so entertaining :D I enjoyed myself (: (:
Talked to Pastor on Wednesday morning. It was good :D Haven't sat down and talked to him properly for quite long. Haha. After that, lazed at home for awhile before heading out with kor to get his prom clothes. It was going just fine and I was having fun until we came to his shoes. Haha. My brother is insecure without laces sigh. Walked and walked and walked for super duper long before we found a pair of shoes he actually liked haha. Mission accomplished! :D Went for training at night. Haha. Was so so tiring but fulfilling, in a sense, to know that I finally worked out :D
Had ISLE on Thursday morning(: We played all the sports hee. And got bashed on the head by oncoming LongChuan! Haha. But it was fun :D After that, went to Bollywood Veggies with Mel and Bel :D :D Haha. Gosh the trip there was so long and the food wasn't worth it ): Haha. So we called a cab to save us! Haha. And being at the ulu place we were at, it took super long for us to get a cab. And then, the cab ride was super duper long and so the meter rose correspondingly. Stupid taxi-driver ): But anyway! Went to eat crepe at Mache to satisfy Mel's craving! Haha. Ate so much till I couldn't eat dinner at home hee. But still! Had so much fun with both of them :D :D
Yesterday, we went out to celebrate my birthday! [ Cheryl's still in Korea ): ] But yeah. Met them at Raffles City to go find food for our picnic :D Settled at The Soup Spoon for 2 bowls of soup as it was still raining. Haha. Then Bel came and we went to Marina Barrage for our picnic(: Bel was supposed to distract me while May Na and Mel surprised me haha. That girl is super lousy haha. Still love her. Haha. Got my feet muddy in the process ): But still! They gave me Gorgeous Gilbert. It is so so so so so so so pretty! My new boyfriend :D Hahah yeah. Sat there and ate and ate and passed Gorgeous Gilbert until some cleaner guy looked strangely at us. Haha. We sat there staring at the water gate waiting for it to open. But it didn't ): Cheat our feelings.
Haha then May Na sang her donkey song which drove Mel and Bel nuts :D :D Haha it was so fun spending time with them(: Hee. After that, went back to Raffles City and headed to Raffles Hotel for ice cream. Haha. The ice cream was delicious :D But we took such a long time deciding what flavours we wanted till we annoyed that guy haha. We then headed to Lau Pa Sat to eat dinner! [ Yes I know eat some more haha ]. The people there are quite annoying ): Pester us when we didn't want to buy their food ): Haha. But still! Ate good food! Yummy :D Haha. Went to walk after eating dinner(: Before ending up at Chinatown and coming home.
Thank you guys so so much!<3
Had training this morning haha. It was quite alright!(: No sun though, so not black yet :D
72 hours was no joke, I hope you know by now. It was painful and torturous. No more alright. Not if I can help it. I'm so sorry for putting you through that because I couldn't change the circumstances ): It was really good to see you that day, even if it was for a short while. You just being around is enough(: Take care alright, don't fall sick again. You gave me a scare that day. Please rest more. I love you<3
Friday, 27 November 2009
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This week was ultimate freedom!(: With parents and sister not around :D Hee.
Gosh I can't believe its finally the end of school :D :D No more lessons and whatnots :D Even though it isn't really much of a holiday, it beats having to go back to school every single day. Yes I'm a good girl who doesn't pon school(:
Went back to SN on Wed, again, for the official moving out ceremony. I guess SN will always always be home. Haha. Sung the school song once again, since like forever, and the IJ song Vivian was waiting for. Haha. It felt so good to be back. And yet again, so sad to know that the beautiful campus is gonna get torn down. :/ Sigh. Byebye ):
Erica crashed Math lecture that day haha. Quite funny Delaney told Esther Erica transferred and was our new classmate haha. I don't know how it turned out haha. But yeah :D Had a great time catching up with Tomoe and all. Miss that girl and her lameness tsktsk. Haha.
Yep! Went to watch The Informant! and Happy Flight this week. Haha. The former is pretty good, but very slow. Was dozing off after a tiring day of school. The latter is worth watching if you want a good laugh(:
Went for Blacks training on Wednesday night. Fitness totally killed all of us. Haha. Like I said, its retribution for eating all the junk food and nonsense the past few weeks. But it felt good to finally work out and not feel fat anymore haha. More trainings to come yay hopefully I'll be fit again(:
Yeah thats basically my week. Haha sadly there's school and all so the freedom I had couldn't really be exploited haha. Except for last night. Wanted to stay out really really late just for fun but Bel has training so couldn't stay out that late. But it felt good not having to care for curfews for once haha. Yay!
I'm glad my parents are back though. Running low on money oops. Had to borrow money to pay for H3 haha. Yeah ): Broke ttm.
Anyway! Exciting weekend ahead! So exciting :D Can't wait haha. Training tomorrow too!(: Hope it'll be alright(:
&I know I haven't been making things easy for you. I have never done that sigh. All I can say is, I'm not ready to let go I'm not giving up anytime soon. I'm hanging on, I promise you I'll hang on. It's been so long and I know we've failed like a million gazillion times. But like what you said, eventually, we'll learn. And I think, we'll be able to, if we do it together. I love you dear. I know it hasn't been easy, I'm sorry. I'm still looking forward to many more years ahead of us. Loves<3
&So once again, the counter resets;
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